I can't do this, God

Not without you. I don't want you as my Co-Pilot. I don't need you as the Number One Priority In My Life. I can't do this without you. I don't want to surrender every part of me to you, but I need to. I. cannot. do. this. life. without. you. I can't find a job, I can't do a job, I can't feed my family, I can't do grad school, I can't play with the kids, I can't have time with my wife, I can't fix the house, I can't have just one car WITHOUT YOU. Can't do it. Please, help me.